Cara: The College of Your Dreams Vs. The College of your Nightmares
I feel as if I am first and foremost a Winthrop student. Winthrop University is where I belong. However, I have zero chance of getting a job up there it seems. I can’t do anything with jobs. The only job I have is the one here in Columbia where I work full time and it’s just an all around awesome experience since I do indeed love this job. This leaves me completely torn.
I love Winthrop
With all of my heart, it’s my favorite college. I love my major, most of my professors and it just seems like an all-around better education. However, there’s a lot of colleges here in Columbia. There’s even USC and there’s tech schools and there’s so many things that I could be doing here and keeping my job and staying close to my family. I mean, even my mom is trying to convince me that the University of South Carolina is the place for me. It isn’t. My sister went there and trust me it isn’t.
But What’s Really IN Rock Hill For Me?
Other than the love of my life, a great education and my perfect home…there’s nothing. I can’t even have any of that without the job that I have here in Columbia. The job that I love despite the long hours and being exhausted all the time. The job I really, really enjoy. I mean, I would be willing to give it up if it meant starting my new life with James, but I can’t start that life without money. I’m confused and I want to go to college.
In a year, James graduates and he wants to live in Rock Hill, but I have 3 years to graduate and I just…I don’t know if it’s worth remaining at Winthrop after that. I just don’t know if it’s worth it to go back up there and finish this degree when to be honest it’s so expensive and I’ve already dropped out and I’m no longer in school.
I honestly have no idea what to do.
As much as I love Winthrop, they’ve scorned me. They’ve made it impossible for me to really even want to go back to that school. I’m tired of fighting. I just want something easy. I don’t want something I’m not sure of. I’m so exhausted from all the fighting, the protesting, the yelling and the threats. I just want to finish my degree in peace.
Just NOT at USC
And I’m not sure where else I can be an Integrated Marketing Communications major and still love it was much as I loved Winthrop. I’m just confused and at this stupid crossroad and I’m not sure which way to turn. The only thing I am sure of is that I love my major and I love James and I love my job.
I just…don’t know where to go from here.